well, here it is, a while too long ince i wrote in here. well, to bring u up to speed wit my life. i have beeb accepted into wyotech, which is in blairsville. i start school in june. im looking forward to it. my and my g/f r doin good. im still having problems with my back, i dont know wut to do about them. im thinking bout ripping my spine out and beating myself to death with it, lol. im sitting here right now eating a bowl of cereal, which happens to b my supper. its french toast crunch. i think a perfect t-shirt for me would b "cereal killer" cereal is bout the only thing i can actually stand to eat evreyday besides chinese. i have been hearing about the war protests, i think that is bullshit. my dad and alot of other brave men and women r over there risking their neck. i think all of us americans, or ppl who deserve to b called that, should sit down for a while and think of wut the men and women of this country in the armed forces have done for this country. if these ppl who r protesting dont believe in wut we r doin, then they can go live somewhere else. not only is the army protecting us, they r freeing a nation which has been ruled by a complete asshole for a long time. anyways, enuff of that, im tryin not to think of my dad bein over there, its tough on my whole family. my uncle is also over there. so my pap is taking this hard. my great grandpa gluntz has finally decided to move here since the loss of his wife back in february. he will b moving in with my nana and papa. my momm's knee dislocated, that wasnt even good. it took a lil while for her knee to go back into place. i felt so bad for my mom. i hate seein her in pain like that. then i fixed a flat tire in the van. i was supposed to go to my g/f's track meet tonight, but i couldnt b/c of everything that happened today.i still think my g/f is kinda pissed at me, but she says she isnt. easter was aight, i got to spend the 18th wit my g/f. she came down for the whole day. it was awesome. i even got to give my lil brother and sister their easter gifts early. they loved them. my uncle john and his wife and 3 boys were all very sick in easter sunday. they ddint come to my nan's for easter supper. i understood, and felt bad for them. im also on a mission to either cut way back on smoking or quit completely. im hoping to quit but it aint goin easy. after u smoked as long as i have, its harder than hell. besides all that, my life has seemed rather dull, lol. anyways, i am trying to see my g/f tonight/tomorrow, whichever u wanna say. i think im gonna b doin some work on the car while im there. im also tryin to figure out here at home to to put some decent exhaust on that car. me and my g/f r gonna go look for seat covers for the car. the one thing i dont like is that she will b in central penn, which is nearharrisburg, while im at wyotech, which is in blairsville. anyways, im out for now, no song for today.

wut the hell, im gonna add another song, im in a really weird mood today, im very indicisive today. (go figure)

the next song for today is: slipknot "i am hated"

The whole world is my enemy - and I'm a walking target
Two times the devil with all the significance
Dragged and raped for the love of a mob
I can't stay - because I can't be stopped
Eat motherfuckers alive who cross us
I know you're all tired of the same ol' bosses
Let me tell you how it's gonna be
I'm gonna kill anyone who steps up in front of me

Welcome to the same ol' fucking scam
Same ol' shit in a dead fad

Everybody wants to be so hard
Are you real or a second rate sports card?
They all lost their dad or their wife just died
They never got to go outside - SHUT UP
Nobody gives a fuck
it doesn't change the fact that you suck

(We are) The anti-cancer
(We are) The only answer
Stripped down, we want you dead
But what's inside of me, you'll never know
(We are) Bipolar gods
(We are) You know what we are
My life was always shit
And I don't think I need this anymore

Now I'm not pretty and I'm not cool
But I'm fat and I'm ugly and proud - so fuck you
Standing out is the new pretension
Sreamline the (sic)ness, half-assed aggression
You gotta see it to believe it, we all got conned
All the mediocre sacred cows we spawne
Put your trust in the mission
We will not repent - this is our religion

(We are) The anti-cancer
(We are) The only answer
Stripped down, we want you dead
But waht's inside of me, you'll never know
(We are) Bipolar gods
(We are) You know what we are
My life was always shit
And I don't think I need this anymore

I AM HATED
YOU ARE HATED
WE ARE HATED

Everything sucks and I can prove it
Everybody dies, shuffle on, remove it
Idividuals, indispensable
I'm the paradox deity vessel
...the other side holds no secret
But this side is done, I don't need it
Before you go, you should know you're breaking down
You'll be rotten by the time you're underground

(We are) The anti-cancer
(We are) The only answer
Stripped down, we want you dead
But what's inside of me, you'll never know
(We are) Bipolar gods
(We are) You know what we are
My life was always shit
And I don't think I need this anymore

(We Are) The source of conscience
(We Are) Distorted sentients
There's only one thing left
And I can't leave until it's sated
(We Are) The absolute
(We Are) Controlling you
They're closing in, I can't escape
I AM HATED

wut the hell, im gonna add another song, im in a really weird mood today, im very indicisive today. (go figure)

the next song for today is: slipknot "i am hated"

The whole world is my enemy - and I'm a walking target
Two times the devil with all the significance
Dragged and raped for the love of a mob
I can't stay - because I can't be stopped
Eat motherfuckers alive who cross us
I know you're all tired of the same ol' bosses
Let me tell you how it's gonna be
I'm gonna kill anyone who steps up in front of me

Welcome to the same ol' fucking scam
Same ol' shit in a dead fad

Everybody wants to be so hard
Are you real or a second rate sports card?
They all lost their dad or their wife just died
They never got to go outside - SHUT UP
Nobody gives a fuck
it doesn't change the fact that you suck

(We are) The anti-cancer
(We are) The only answer
Stripped down, we want you dead
But what's inside of me, you'll never know
(We are) Bipolar gods
(We are) You know what we are
My life was always shit
And I don't think I need this anymore

Now I'm not pretty and I'm not cool
But I'm fat and I'm ugly and proud - so fuck you
Standing out is the new pretension
Sreamline the (sic)ness, half-assed aggression
You gotta see it to believe it, we all got conned
All the mediocre sacred cows we spawne
Put your trust in the mission
We will not repent - this is our religion

(We are) The anti-cancer
(We are) The only answer
Stripped down, we want you dead
But waht's inside of me, you'll never know
(We are) Bipolar gods
(We are) You know what we are
My life was always shit
And I don't think I need this anymore

I AM HATED
YOU ARE HATED
WE ARE HATED

Everything sucks and I can prove it
Everybody dies, shuffle on, remove it
Idividuals, indispensable
I'm the paradox deity vessel
...the other side holds no secret
But this side is done, I don't need it
Before you go, you should know you're breaking down
You'll be rotten by the time you're underground

(We are) The anti-cancer
(We are) The only answer
Stripped down, we want you dead
But what's inside of me, you'll never know
(We are) Bipolar gods
(We are) You know what we are
My life was always shit
And I don't think I need this anymore

(We Are) The source of conscience
(We Are) Distorted sentients
There's only one thing left
And I can't leave until it's sated
(We Are) The absolute
(We Are) Controlling you
They're closing in, I can't escape
I AM HATED

well, wut a day.

i did alot of nothing, not really. i did wut i do best, destruction. chainsaws kick ass. earlier this week i ripped a building apart wit a beater truck (ford suxs) and then got the chains saw out after it. it was fun. saw my g/f a twice this week and hung out wit my peeps. didnt play much pool this week. (im falling behind) my dad left for kuwait thursday morning. we finally heard from him this morning, too bad we were in bed. a lil later im goin back out side wit my fave chainsaw to raise some more hell and then hopefully goin to shoot some pool. im buyin a 1979 firebird next week i think. i sent in my application for wyoming tech on thursday. i hope i find out if o got accepted. i also find out this week if i get hired at this one job im tryin for. im also buyin a fiero, again. (they drive alright but make a mess when crashed) im still workin on a song for today. im in a hard core metal mood today, kinda like rippin shit apart and makin chaos and reaking havoc. one of those moods where slipknot is key, but im lookin towards something a lil older. i got 2 copies of slipknot's mate feed kill repeat cds. im happy bout that. i also got some slipknot shot glasses. (ready zane???) and then i also got 2 dvds, (not the ones o was waiting for) and a sliptknot poster and system poster. i been drinkin alot of soda keepin myself wired (thank u code red) well, my mood changed again. i think my song is gonna b kinda sexual, lol. oh yeah, more news on the past week. i got my prom tex. i also have glasses now. (i think they look aight) oh yeah, this talk of god and the devil on tv and in everyone's home and shit bout this war, god and satan have nothing to do with it, its jus that fuck head sadam.

todays song is: korn "beat it upright"

Are you ready for a good pounding baby? (get down)
Are you ready to get it on? (get down, get down)
Don't pretend you're not fucking freaky baby. (get down)
I will spank that ass just for fun (get down, on the ground)

Ass up high, make a motherfu-cker cry
It's so good, that I could die
Help me stay alive.

The time is right
I want to feel it good'n tight.
I'm down to do this all night
I'm gunna beat it upright.

I'll behave
Oh my God, make me beg, my God!
Yes I'm ready for a good flogging baby (my God) (get down)
Come on ream my ass for fun (get down/my God/get down)
Don't let up till my ass is bleeding baby (my God) (get down)
Don't let up until you are done (get down, on the ground)

Ass up high, make a motherfu-cker cry
It's so good, that I could die
Help me stay alive.

The time is right
I wanna feel it good'n tight.
I'm down to do this all night
I'm gunna beat it upright.

We're going on a ride
I'm gunna turn you inside out upside down
Don't try to run and hide,
Yes it's true what they say about my kind.

Are you ready for a good pounding baby? (get down)
Are you ready to get it on? (get down, get down)
Don't pretend you're not fucking freaky baby. (get down)
I will spank that ass just for fun (get down, on the ground)

Ass up high, make a motherfu-cker cry
It's so good, that I could die
Help me stay alive.

The time is right
I wanna feel it good'n tight.
I'm down to do this all night
I'm gunna beat it upright.

todays song is "death's head" by slayer. no real reason, jus love the song.

Death's pointed at your head
Your mind's on the trigger pull it
Bludgeon bodies give up their muted horror story
Scene of your rage
Death is not strange
Blood on the walls
You stand alone satisfied
I'll wake the silence in you
I'll shoot the violence
Terrified by the thought that you are all alone
Paralyzed by the fact that you are all alone
You're losing your mind, I'm losing control
You're losing your mind, as I bury your world
I'll wake the silence in you
I'll shoot the violence
I can't remember yet someone always seems to die
You are the reason why I became the chosen one
I've got the right
God makes no sense
I've got the right
I feel my back against the wall

[Lead: Hanneman]

Death's pointed at your head
Your mind's on the trigger pull it
Bludgeon bodies give up their muted horror story
Scene of my rage
Scene of my rage
Death is your name
You're facing your grave
I taste your tears caress your face
I watch you lie insane
Dying for love
Praying to die
I want what's inside you
Dressed in your blood
You wear it well
Dying because I care
Your eyes are wide but you can't see
Rotting my lust away
I'll shoot the violence through you
And wake the part that's dead
I hate the silence in you
I want what's in your head